ANDYDI I LOVE THEE

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Through the eyes shes a friend, but i realize i’m obsessed with her

We are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.
Should I smile cause were friends, or should I cry cause that’s all well ever gonna be.
It’s hard not to love someone when she’s all you ever think about.
Sometimes I wish I had never met you because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.
I sit here and wonder if you’ll ever understand just how much of me belongs to you.
I want a new life and I want it with you.

If I was pretty would you love me? If I was perfect would you want me? If I loved you would you leave me?
It’s just hard to think I’ll never get the chance to say you’re mine.
If I reach for your hand, will you hold it? If I hold out my arms, will you hug me? If I go for your lips, will you kiss me? If I capture your heart, will you love me?
I wish you could hear all the words I’m too afraid to say.

Do I really love her or am I addicted to the pain of wanting something I can’t have?
The hardest part is being around her knowing you can’t have her and she’ll never want you.
Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you might love me one day, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone.